HALLUCINATIONS.

EPISODE ONE – OH CIVILIZATION, RIGHT?

If you haven’t noticed yet; your life is just a very short trip you’re passing through. Where you live the lifetime trying to figure out yourself; and then you die once you reach the knowing. We live to deal with every single mission and quest we’re facing, just like that video game that is controlling your mind while you’re playing, but when you’re done with the whole game; you feel that it was a waste of time. This game just gave you the false feeling that you believed during the game; the feeling that you’re the master of your universe, incidents and fate; as if you can really handle this ultimate power if you got it.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, I stood up and opened my door to the open space, to find that we are all just different species of the same creature, various breeds living in a wild open space to find a language of communication and survival; but this universe is timeless. and all the creatures are trying to survive from the out-siders who wants to control us and suck the life out of our bodies to be a flowing soulless creatures. I’m not one of the creatures of this civilization, but I’m the one who arrived to see the truth. the out-siders want to extract our minds to build a huge empire. They are trying to conquer our state and disturb our feelings, as they direct us towards what they want us to discuss, see and feel, by blinding your real senses with the mainstream and the lies on screens.

Our civilization politics rules are easy, we just don’t discuss it because our people believe in our king, the ultimate energy. In our community shutting up is better than being killed, the ultimate energy always in need for more souls to stay in charge. families are screaming not to talk about our king, you don’t have the enough information and you can’t handle what they are handling. In our civilization you can’t change or even influence because we are only flowing bodies, and our souls are sucked to build the huge magical machine. our minds are closed right now so keep it for yourself citizen, oh civilization; right?

I’ve arrived to this dimension but I’ve never found anyone talking about arts, culture, or music. from where I come we used to taste and criticize everything going around, but we talked; even if they used to tell you that you’re nothing and they are billionaires, you’re a loser or a hater, regardless the quality of art served to the ears, and no matter what is the people perceiving. But in this civilization you’re not even allowed to talk; oh civilization.

When I arrived to this state, I didn’t know where am I, but I always hear the creatures saying; “it won’t get worse, we’re in Barzakh already”. Some of those creatures are always afraid, but on the other hand other creatures feel safe and calm. In Barzakh. the community depends on circles, and circles depends on people’s actions and reactions, if we’re alike we stick together. but if you’re evil, you don’t get to stay with the good people. And the secret power machine is attracting those bunch of people making them close, but do they have other things in common aside from good and evil to be connected this way.

And suddenly while I’m observing I hear an old man voice saying “Forget it; you will never know anything, until you know where you’re … the secret of Barzakh and accept it”. Do you remember where you come from?”. And suddenly a lot of questions with no answers are striking my head and blowing my neurons away from each other to give a space for the memory flow, creating gaps of thinking striving for some fresh air, I’ve been thinking about it for a while; “who am I and where I come from”. Two questions with no answers. But suddenly I understood where I am and I just found myself whispering Oh this is not a civilization, I’m Dead.

June 19, 2018October 26, 2021 by Dro

Suicidal Creature

There was no way out of this situation, i was looking around searching for help from the surrounding crowd, and suddenly I realized something that was really scary, the details of the creature coming towards me started to shine, he was huge with a scary scar on his face; The scar was very eye-catching, crossing the ghost man’s face from his right eye to the tip of the right side of his mouth, he is angry or at least that’s what i felt, am i the reason of this anger, is he looking for a fight of  angry flowing creatures, i was invisible in the last episode what is happening ?. No, he is looking with hate to everyone around him, but he is calm and confident. He started to shout with something that I couldn’t realize, then he pushed a button by the side of his belt, his eyes are glowing and a happy smile appeared on the rough face, he blew himself up, suddenly the vision blew and dissolved just like the blown suicidal creature. I’m falling rotating inside a black hole. and i remembered those holes I watched before in the time travelling and magic movies.

I HIT THE GROUND, I’M BACK!!

I’m not in the jammed blown street anymore and I’m still with those hallucinations, which looks real, I don’t think that these are just hallucinations, I’m feeling like I’m really living through this; i’m conscious, I can feel everything, see everything, I can use my senses, I’m stuck in an alternative parallel realistic world, or between reality and fantasy, what is this dark room, am i dead?. I’m flowing with the visions and the hallucinations until I figure out what am i doing in the same dark room i started with before the time travelling or the lucid dreaming i just passed through. I started to look at the wall behind me turning around to face another black wall, i felt that i got used to the darkroom but i remembered the ray of light, I started to feel safe. the room was empty and the ray was cutting the room towards my heart, unconsciously; I started to follow the ray gently hitting my heart, I looked through an opening; a circular one, and I found something I never thought about searching for it in this scary place, where deep fears are eating me in this black time travelling room of secrets.

I FOUND THE MOON; the same moon i knew since i was a young kid, the one i stared at for years, I felt that i found a member of the family or a friend, it symbolized hope to me, and for the first time i found myself talking in the darkroom, i felt conscious; so i started to talk to the moon. it was glamorous with the stars shinning around him, with a lake reflecting the sparkling stars on the surface, keeping the eternal secrets deep inside, with a mountain in the back holding the whole scene together with power and glory. But i know this picture; it is something from my past, a shot i perceived before. Am i getting snippets from my real life?

BUT FOR NOW, I FOUND THE SOURCE OF THE RAY.

I started talking to the moon, asking questions without getting any reply, what is this dark room, the jammed street, the creature and now this picture-perfect moon, all these meaningless thoughts and weird hallucinations, getting introduced to a new state of existence, I decided to put the option of being asleep and i’m just living a dream in my head regarding all the sudden episodes of vision. My higher self is sending me a message and i must get it right; no regrets. But i need to get myself out of this dark bubble, staying locked inside myself is a nightmare. I’m not sleeping; i tried to wake myself up, everything is showing me the opposite. I’m awake I feel everything; with conscious and  i’m using my senses, but I just can’t get replies. All my screams are going unheard.

June 21, 2018June 21, 2018 by Dro

Visionary Hallucinations

Trapped inside my memory time machine, crossing years in seconds and the long days are summed up in one picture, with a locked out soul and an over-thinking brain, am i dead, is this the end?

I’m sitting in a corner of a dark room, with high black walls and ceiling, and the only source of light is two small tiny circular openings, my eyes; the light is coming through the elliptical grooves. My eyes are hurt but my mind is still working, thinking of changing everything but I feel leashed, i couldn’t see it but i felt my arms around my back with metal gloves, It is just a dream you need to wake up .. it is getting weird?

He is awake and inside the same dark room, he decided to stand up to face the wall instead of facing the beast inside, the attached history stopped him from thinking in order not to open any closed painful cuts; physically or metaphysically, he started denying existence, but suddenly he felt a hammer dropping his head down again to the ground of the black room.

It wasn’t a real hammer, but a vision shot him down like a hummingbird, what is this vision, am I visualizing hallucinations or am i just drugged with a hardcore substance screwing my thoughts and leaving me stuck.

I’m walking in a jammed street where weird cursed creatures are stuck, waiting and crying for forgiveness, i passed by a mirror but i didn’t see my reflection, and i’m standing there feeling like an invisible ghost, i’m here but i’m not, i had this feeling that I can’t configure the pictures and the frames, I’ve never been here before. I found vast creatures and tiny ones running around, flying over flowing towards the same node within the same stream.

I checked my watch and it wasn’t working, and then the arrows  started to rotate just like my favorite bull inside the ring with the controlling matador, and i’m a lost Taurus trying to seek evidence or signs that might show me or let me know my state of existence. The Arrows stopped and dissolved behind the glass cover. And i looked up again to find a weird ugly-looking creature staring at me and getting closer.

June 18, 2018June 21, 2018 by Dro

Perception Compass

NOW I’m out of the dark room I’ve been trapped in for so long inside my mind, trying to flow through the mixed thoughts and feelings, to catch the rays of  the illuminating light and the colors of the phony emotions surrounding me in order to deal with.

YET from the control room, i’m watching a limping movie with poor messages sent with inaccurate signals to my perception’s control room, we actually don’t like the pictures around us on the billboards but we got used to it; The models on TV,  the commercial music played in the background, or else we need to face the sea of the wars around the world. Picking between entertainment and politics is rough, but they got something in common which is “LIES”.

We’ve seen lately a lot of changes and new faces messing with the globe, and a man who lived in the revolution era must know how to differentiate between chaos and evolution , but that man got massive trust issues, honestly; we don’t know the truth of anything around us, we live with a lot of doubts and unknowns eating our communities down, and taking our societies and cultures to a place with no sky, inside the 3rd world bubble.

He always wished to live on an island far away from technology and new fake iron, staying as far as I can, reaching my inner self-control, to free my soul or sell it to the fire, believing or leaving. Can we master the universe or at least our lives?

June 18, 2018June 19, 2018 by Dro

A Stupid Game!!

No one had the chance to choose a lot of facts he is facing everyday, I haven’t chose my name; no one did, and at the same time you can’t imagine yourself under another tag. Have you chose where to be born; or your parents, I DON’T THINK SO. Have you chose where to live, maybe you don’t like it and you blame the universe putting you in this spot but you can imagine another place with perfect details and beautiful sights with another souls.

I want to live in a place near the sea among high mountains with a sunny day and i can spend my night with the moon, nice people are around if needed and fresh food to eat, I want to go Natural, free and in peace, I don’t want to know anything about any political arguments, clashes, hate, death, disasters or anything that kills my joy and take me down.

IF YOU CAN HAVE ALL OF US AGAIN NATURE,
IF YOU CAN HAVE ME AGAIN!

I see that everything is just sent for a reason, there is a higher power controlling us, HYPNOTIZED? Are we?

I’ll leave you answering this until I skip my hypnosis, we are controlled through a lot of ways and passages of destruction, and your mission is to break your straight line, SKIP YOUR LANE, USE ANOTHER, Decide to go for a trip to the moon which is possible now, even if it is only in your head, Your eyes are closed already; Imagine, do what you love, or chill and do nothing as long as you like it, just do it instantly. Or else you can bury yourself, kill your ambition with these killing external forces, YOUR POWER IS NOTHING.

Everything is known for the controller, the programmer, the one who created the whole thing, In Music; the composer, In Art; the painter, In politics; The most powerful icon and in Life for believers GOD, so why should we bother ourselves asking a lot of questions with no answers, you’re the only one who will suffer. Stupid game, right?

June 18, 2018June 20, 2018 by Dro